1.0 Introduction

So what I’ve heard constantly over years when it comes to my general behaviour, is that I am: “Thirsty” “constantly horny” “too lewd” etc., each of which coming from the perspective that me talking about sexual topics all day every day purely comes from a place of being aroused, and furthermore due to me being at home most of the time, that arousal having no way to vent out other than me being lewd all day. And in addition to that, that the nature of my often unfiltered and greatly detailed descriptions likely come down to me not having a habitus around other “normal people”, only living online, and therefore not being kept in check on how I behave myself. That is not what they are saying, but that is what they mean, and the most charitable interpretation of their claims.

But that isn’t so. In fact it is pretty much completely wrong.

Wrong Assumptions:

The assumption that I am aroused all the time. I am actually not. In fact I would go as far as to say that I am almost never aroused.
Whether or not I am aroused, that I would love to have sex all the time. I do not, in fact part of why I am home so much, is because I don’t share a lot of bodily intimacy with people, nor do I have an inherent desire to do so.
That I am talking this way because my brain is just filled with sex. There is an actual reason
That I am so extremely detailed, so blasé about personal sexual matters and often grossly open and unfiltered, because I have no one around me to put me in my place when I talk like that. I actually talk like that outside my home as well, even when very far away and when around strangers that do take some offence to it, and let me know.
This is all an excuse to hide the big truth – me being a giant creep. Actually that one might have some truth to it haha!

The actual answer is not that easy to explain though. In Short: I talk like that because I am ideologically inclined to, because I actively try to reproduce a habitus and opinion that I believe to be healthy for people in general, if not a boon to all of society.

But in long form? Well.. as is typical for me, we need to go a bit back here to explain this in detail: